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oh, the things i would take to make me feel something again. something good. but i cant.

you cant threaten someone to force normalcy upon them. only conformity,
i hate conformity.
but i hate threats.
i already yield to your relentlessness
so what’s a little longer?
then a little longer?
then just a bit longer still?
promise you’ll let go.
promises mean nothing to you.

I can hear them in the distance. yelling. chanting. Living their lives.
I can feel the thread straining.
I can feel the thread beginning to break.
but my own hatred is always there.
an unconventional safety net, yes, but a net nonetheless.
Because i was never good enough
to be engulfed in your arms.
and dissolve forever into your oblivion.

I know that I missed my shot.
but I was not the one
who aimed the gun.
Nor was I the one to pull the trigger.